“Something certainly rattling up there… Could it be… a thought perhaps?” Gun Roswell
This little Brain o’ Mine
This, tiny, useful brain of mine
Thinks, it is, doing just fine
It keeps on going and going and going
Even though my body yearns for slowing
Down at night, well… sometimes
And some other times
Too needs, to rewind
So, I ask you nicely
Please be kind
Shut down
Every once in a while
Let me sleep
Dream real deep
And maybe a later
I will reward you with a nice state of
Quiz and debate
If I waited till I felt like writing, I would never write at all -Anne Tyler
Keep your enemies closer
Hi, my name is Gun and I’m my worst enemy.
It took some ten plus years until I found my muse again and started writing, creatively that is.
Call it a prolonged writer’s block, procrastinating, pure laziness or just life itself, I could always find an excuse for not writing. It was never about not having the ideas or the opportunity to write.
And still, all this time I considered myself a closet writer.
Then it hit me, the reason why I was not writing. It was plain as rain. I was my worst enemy.
Feeling self-conscious and always too critical of what I had written. Thinking all had already been said and done. Wondering if anyone would actually read my stories and would they even like them.
What happened next?
Guess I grew older, got more mature and comfortable in my own skin? Or then I just realized I had to give it a try once more, just to be sure. I did not want to have any regrets later because of giving up or not trying at all.
So now I am writing again.
I have a blog, I write stories and yes, I am even dabbling in the world of script writing.
Have I changed?
Not really, I am still very critical with my own work, doubting if it’s even readable, but every day I succeed in writing anything, I feel exhilarated.
“How ghastly for her, people actually thinking, with their brains, and right next door. Oh, the travesty of it all.” ― Gail Carriger, Soulless
My Brain has Too many Tabs Open
Work
Eat
Sleep
Repeat
Filling my mind with (useful and) useless information
Keeping up with the latest situation
Internet
Radio
Television
Stereo
Hard at work
Mind in full play
If you do not reboot
There will be hell to pay
A warning
Your start up disk is almost full
Ignoring
All command functions are off line
My internal screen goes dark
There is absolutely no spark
Staring in the mirror
At my blank face
A blank page
Cold water against my skin
But neither circuit nor pin
Makes the connection to my brain
Your system has encountered an error
Oh the terror
Loosing my ground
while seeing the message
Page not found
Scanning my mind
But nothing I find
Search button pressed once more
Hoping some data to score
Panic strikes
Trying to hide
My head in a bush
Feeling the rush
To backup my data
Sooner than later
Processing…
Internal error detected
Crash report has been sent as expected
Complete system restore
Reboot in one, two, three, four…
A slumber I fall
Hearing my dreams call
Power down complete
Early next morning
Waking up from my snoring
System initializing
Complete scanning in progress
No further errors detected
Finally rid of the ogres
My mind again protected
All is in ship shape and Bristol fashion
Need to start up in rations
Restore was successful
Having my mind full
With all that extra bull
Now in clear mind
I can rewind
Until my next reboot
I have some space to fill
It would be a real hoot
If I had the will
And way
To let some of it get away
The circle is complete
Work
Eat
Sleep
Repeat
Lesson learnt: “Sometimes it’s good to just take a day off, from everything, really!”
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